So.. I had a mentally stimulating topic with my quadmate, Britney. You really don't think about how you would react to certain things. There are a few that I want to I guess write about...
One of the questions was... say that there is a child that is in an orphanage, and a homosexual couple wanted to adopt him (or her). Would you let the couple adopt the child, or would you let the child grow up as an orphan... basically with the feeling of rejection for their whole entire life?
I have NEVER taken into consideration of something like that. Because both sides has negativity to it. The thing that I ultimately think about is how there is no limitations to where God can move... but how would you respond in that situation... would you want a child to grow up alone? That's a hard thing to grasp.
It's an objective thing for me. I guess for one, I have learned how to be objective, especially as a Communication major. Some people may disagree with me. I do have my beliefs. I have my stance about homosexuality... but at the same time.... I need to have that SAME stance about lying... About talking badly about someone.. about being disrespectful. I mean, homosexuality can lead to a greater physical consequence.. but spiritually, it's held the same why. So I have NO right to justify my sin.. and not anyone else's. Either way, my sin is going to affect others.. just as much as their sin affects others.
The next question was related to abortion.
Of course, we have a stance that of course abortion is wrong. Life begins at conception. So we honestly have NO right to take away the opportunity for someone to have life. But at the same time... I have NO idea of the kind of things that a girl as to emotionally deal with when it comes to abortion. That's a common argument that people that justify abortion make. Which is a true statement in a way Like... if I were personally put into that situation.. I cannot say for any girl.. whether they are COMPLETELY against abortion or not... that would not even have abortion come across their mind at least a little. I cannot imagine myself in that situation.. which is part of the reason as to why the sanctity of sex in marriage is valuable to me. Especially as a student in high school.. especially as someone who grew up in a surrounding where people who became pregnant were suddenly looked down upon. Can you really say that you wouldn't even think about it? Then another.. if they were sexual abused. They obviously will have a different perception of it. Something that they didn't have any control over. Although the chances of that is very small.. it is still possible. I can't put myself in that situation... but you cannot say that the thought may occur. Makes me REALLY reflect on the importance of saving sex for marriage.I have to make sure that I'm not put into those compromising situations. Because things like that are possible.. It just really makes you think a lot deeper. Which is why empathy is an important trait to have as a believer in Christ (Romans 12:14-15).
I kind of wanted to touch on those two things.. because... It made me reflect on HOW important embracing God's love really is.. and at the same time how hard it is. Sadly enough, there are a lot of people that will consider things like abortion because of people they feel would look down on them. I can honestly say that what I know.. is if I was in a situation like that.. I've already established that I'd probably not leave my house. If it came to that.. because I know that with the character that I do have.. it's like.. a blow.. I mean.. we do have to pay the consequences for our actions.. but our consequence should NOT be rejection from the body of Christ. I really think that if we all loved like we were supposed to.. the fight for abortions would not be nearly as strong as it is now.
Even with homosexuality.. A lot of times, they too feel rejected.. which is why they consider Christians to be homophobes (which in some cases, there are). I personally had to learn that. But I did.. and it wasn't easy. I don't really know whether or not I have friends that are that way. But I do know I have relatives. (which is a main reason why I had to dig deep into it) I destroy my testimony and progress with reaching out to them if I blatantly talk about how homosexuality is wrong. Whether through fb statuses, etc. The same really can apply to any other type of sin... but we have to also take note that we ARE FLAWED. We cannot make exceptions for any sin.. but at the same time.. we have to address them in love.
-Quayla
Saturday, March 3, 2012
Thursday, February 23, 2012
Chiseling... Qualifying... NEXT YEAR
This is my first blog in a while. I am really slacking and its definitely not a good thing. I used to write all the time.
Hahaha well anyways, the past few weeks (well, month actually) has been one of those defining moments for me. For one, I officially am majoring in Broadcasting and Public Relations. With a minor in Psychology. I never thought that I would actually minor in Psychology. It never really crossed my mind that much for me to want to declare it. But during RA qualifying weekend, we had to do a counseling session and that really hit home for me. I loved doing it, but at the same time, I want to learn how to better counsel.. to better understand that way people think. Especially teenagers and young adults.
I'm still in the process of waiting for God to tell me exactly what He wants me to do with my career. But I feel as though these little adjustments that I've been making as far as my major and campus involvement goes are allowing me to get closer to finding out.
But again, God has really been chiseling off hindrances in my life. Whether its with the things I say, or things that I needed to learn how to deal with. I've especially been convicted heavily on the things that I say. I am definitely hasty with my words.. or when something bothers me, I tend to go on and on about it. But in my devotionals, I've been basically reflecting on wisdom. And learned how FOOLISH it is to keep going on with my words. It will definitely bring a lot of trouble my way.
But God is definitely shaping me to become a leader.
I was selected to become an RA for the next school year. It is absolutely phenomenal! It is also great because at the beginning of the school year, I wasn't sure if I was quite ready to actually take on the role of having the spiritual responsibility of 50+ girls on a hall. I still have a lot of learning to do, but now, I feel confident that it is the time and place for me to start. It's going to be a growing process, but I'm excited for it! Over the next few days, I'll be meeting with possible RA partners and next Friday, I'll get my placement for the next year and then the formatting of the leadership team will begin. I'm REALLY excited about what God is going to do over the course of the next few months as well as the next school year.
But that is basically my mini update on what has been going on!
-Quayla
Hahaha well anyways, the past few weeks (well, month actually) has been one of those defining moments for me. For one, I officially am majoring in Broadcasting and Public Relations. With a minor in Psychology. I never thought that I would actually minor in Psychology. It never really crossed my mind that much for me to want to declare it. But during RA qualifying weekend, we had to do a counseling session and that really hit home for me. I loved doing it, but at the same time, I want to learn how to better counsel.. to better understand that way people think. Especially teenagers and young adults.
I'm still in the process of waiting for God to tell me exactly what He wants me to do with my career. But I feel as though these little adjustments that I've been making as far as my major and campus involvement goes are allowing me to get closer to finding out.
But again, God has really been chiseling off hindrances in my life. Whether its with the things I say, or things that I needed to learn how to deal with. I've especially been convicted heavily on the things that I say. I am definitely hasty with my words.. or when something bothers me, I tend to go on and on about it. But in my devotionals, I've been basically reflecting on wisdom. And learned how FOOLISH it is to keep going on with my words. It will definitely bring a lot of trouble my way.
But God is definitely shaping me to become a leader.
I was selected to become an RA for the next school year. It is absolutely phenomenal! It is also great because at the beginning of the school year, I wasn't sure if I was quite ready to actually take on the role of having the spiritual responsibility of 50+ girls on a hall. I still have a lot of learning to do, but now, I feel confident that it is the time and place for me to start. It's going to be a growing process, but I'm excited for it! Over the next few days, I'll be meeting with possible RA partners and next Friday, I'll get my placement for the next year and then the formatting of the leadership team will begin. I'm REALLY excited about what God is going to do over the course of the next few months as well as the next school year.
But that is basically my mini update on what has been going on!
-Quayla
Friday, February 10, 2012
RA Hosting Week
Wow. This is the first blog that I have written in a while. So much has been going on. But it actually has been amazing! I had the opportunity to pass first cuts for RA. Going through the past week for the second round has been quite an experience! For one thing, I have to say that I wish it was a required thing for everyone in leadership to do. I say this because I have definitely learned a lot about myself just in one week. I also have been able to tap into better understanding what God wants me to do with my life. But then on the spiritual standpoint, I have been able to see my strengths and weaknesses. I've learned a new level of humility. I have been able to see more clearly the areas in my life that I need to grow in. I'm not sure if I'm going to make RA or not, I really hope I do, and I'm confident that I will... but if I don't, I won't feel like I wasted any time. I enjoyed this experience, learned SO much. I will never take it back.
One thing that I really learned this week is how far I've come. Sometimes you won't realize it until you're given the opportunity to share. Last night, my host RAs asked us to share our story/testimony. I have shared my testimony with my Prayer Group last semester, but for some reason, sharing my testimony with another leader was different. I haven't had the chance to share with my RAs fully yet, which I know will come, but for me, it was the first time that I shared my story with a leader. I kind of set a goal for myself this year to be transparent. So for me to be comfortable enough to share my story, it was actually amazing. I have grown to the point where I've learned how to forgive, learned how to trust God, learned how to grow.
But I did get a chance to do cleanliness checks, convo checks, curfew checks, fire drills. Haha I like it a lot.I would really enjoy the responsibility.
Definitely met some awesome people in the process.. Been a GREAT experience. =)
-Quayla
One thing that I really learned this week is how far I've come. Sometimes you won't realize it until you're given the opportunity to share. Last night, my host RAs asked us to share our story/testimony. I have shared my testimony with my Prayer Group last semester, but for some reason, sharing my testimony with another leader was different. I haven't had the chance to share with my RAs fully yet, which I know will come, but for me, it was the first time that I shared my story with a leader. I kind of set a goal for myself this year to be transparent. So for me to be comfortable enough to share my story, it was actually amazing. I have grown to the point where I've learned how to forgive, learned how to trust God, learned how to grow.
But I did get a chance to do cleanliness checks, convo checks, curfew checks, fire drills. Haha I like it a lot.I would really enjoy the responsibility.
Definitely met some awesome people in the process.. Been a GREAT experience. =)
-Quayla
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Just a ramble
I feel as though I'm going to be up all night tonight. Pretty much because: 1. I haven't fully finished packing. I have to wash and dry the remainder of my clothes. My mom put a comforter in the wash... so that's going to take quite a while. 2. I have to actually finish cleaning. haha at least I got my bathroom clean, but my room... not so much. I know this time around I have to actually have my room entirely clean because my aunt is coming down for a couple of days and I guess somebody will be staying in my room.
By the time I get all of that done, it'll be time for me to get up and get ready for church. So I assume that I will have to enjoy a cup of coffee when I get to church.
I cannot believe that school will be starting in a couple of days... well.. actually a day. I already have a lot of busy work to do when I get there.. like buying and exchanging books... studying for the SLD test.. an SLD interview.. talking with my RAs about me taking the SLD position and then possibly seeing where that goes.
My goal for the semester is to finish with a 4.0. It's highly possible.. but I do want to bring my gpa up just a tad. I have a 3.75 now I believe. It's not bad.. but I would love to receive suma cum laude when I graduate. So I will need a 3.85 to get that. Which means I will have to have a couple of 4.0 semesters. Then no less than 3.5 in a few others. So far the lowest grade that I've gotten was 3.6, so if I just keep that as my low, and get a few more high gpa semesters, I should be good to go. I believe that it could happen, I just definitely have to keep focused, organize my time better. Minimize my leisure time on the internet, and it could happen. I'm actually glad that I only have one class on Tuesday and Thursdays. So I have literally all day to study and do work. Especially when it'll be a time that no one will be in the quad. I also will have more than enough time to get a regular exercise routine going. I am very much out of shape it is ridiculous. I have to get overall body tone and I cannot allow it to get out of control. I know that I can do it, I just have to put it into my schedule like it's a class. And definitely work hard.
I have to actually complete my goal list for the year of 2012.. I have part of my list at school from last year, so I have to look at it and see what I've completed, and what I haven't. Then I need to examine which ones are better to attain, spend some time making a template... then keeping them in my notebook somewhere. I was kind of hoping that I would have more time to get it done tomorrow, but I know for a fact that I'm not going to get to school at a decent time. Well, maybe hopefully I can get to school by 5:30.. If I do, than I can possibly have some time to do so.
One thing that I want to do this semester is to get a job. I think either Monday or Tuesday, I'll go to the mall and put in some applications. Hopefully it'll work out that way. I have no preferences as to where I work. My parents are at the point where they're like "your job is only school". However, I really feel as though I should start working towards doing something for myself, especially when it comes to wanting to do something that requires money, I want to be able to just get what I need to get right then and there without having to wait for it, or ask for the money. I don't think that's a bad desire to have.
But all in all.. that's what's going on in my head.. haha I actually think I can go to bed now...
-Quayla
By the time I get all of that done, it'll be time for me to get up and get ready for church. So I assume that I will have to enjoy a cup of coffee when I get to church.
I cannot believe that school will be starting in a couple of days... well.. actually a day. I already have a lot of busy work to do when I get there.. like buying and exchanging books... studying for the SLD test.. an SLD interview.. talking with my RAs about me taking the SLD position and then possibly seeing where that goes.
My goal for the semester is to finish with a 4.0. It's highly possible.. but I do want to bring my gpa up just a tad. I have a 3.75 now I believe. It's not bad.. but I would love to receive suma cum laude when I graduate. So I will need a 3.85 to get that. Which means I will have to have a couple of 4.0 semesters. Then no less than 3.5 in a few others. So far the lowest grade that I've gotten was 3.6, so if I just keep that as my low, and get a few more high gpa semesters, I should be good to go. I believe that it could happen, I just definitely have to keep focused, organize my time better. Minimize my leisure time on the internet, and it could happen. I'm actually glad that I only have one class on Tuesday and Thursdays. So I have literally all day to study and do work. Especially when it'll be a time that no one will be in the quad. I also will have more than enough time to get a regular exercise routine going. I am very much out of shape it is ridiculous. I have to get overall body tone and I cannot allow it to get out of control. I know that I can do it, I just have to put it into my schedule like it's a class. And definitely work hard.
I have to actually complete my goal list for the year of 2012.. I have part of my list at school from last year, so I have to look at it and see what I've completed, and what I haven't. Then I need to examine which ones are better to attain, spend some time making a template... then keeping them in my notebook somewhere. I was kind of hoping that I would have more time to get it done tomorrow, but I know for a fact that I'm not going to get to school at a decent time. Well, maybe hopefully I can get to school by 5:30.. If I do, than I can possibly have some time to do so.
One thing that I want to do this semester is to get a job. I think either Monday or Tuesday, I'll go to the mall and put in some applications. Hopefully it'll work out that way. I have no preferences as to where I work. My parents are at the point where they're like "your job is only school". However, I really feel as though I should start working towards doing something for myself, especially when it comes to wanting to do something that requires money, I want to be able to just get what I need to get right then and there without having to wait for it, or ask for the money. I don't think that's a bad desire to have.
But all in all.. that's what's going on in my head.. haha I actually think I can go to bed now...
-Quayla
Sunday, January 1, 2012
Joseph-That Leader
I've been thinking a lot about leadership lately. Of course you hear from time to time that "so and so" is a GREAT leader. But it actually made me want to look just a tad further as to what distinguishes a good leader... from a GREAT leader...
Joseph Was Strategic/He Planned
I don't know how it was humanly possible to store enough food to last an entire population of Egypt for 7 Years... Let alone, having enough to give out to people who were not living in Egypt! Either their appetites weren't nearly as big as ours or something... But however it was done, definitely required a lot of time to plan. He mastered that..
Joseph didn't allow his "past" to determine his future...
It's hard to deal with when your own flesh and blood sells you into slavery. How can you deal with that? I'm sure Joseph had a lot of time to think about it. He had to have experienced a lot of hurt and pain. But he was able to forgive and act on forgiveness...
That's where the question "Where do I fit in?" comes. I never really understood the fact as to why people said that I had the capabilities of being a leader. I felt as though it was strange, being the fact that I don't "force" my way into the perceived leadership position. Yes, I tend to be very competitive, but I somehow step aside and let someone else take that know "leadership" role in a group. Although I enjoy being the "go-to" person, I actually tend to sit back. I'm not the "everything needs to be my way or else" kind of person....
But I'm not a "I'll let them handle it until they get lost or chaos comes" kind of leader either.
I've even taken classes where we discussed the types of leaders in groups, and I didn't fall into ANY of them... or at least I struggle with figuring it out. So hearing the words "Quayla, you're a leader" really makes me wonder....
But then I started to reflect and think this.... "What attributes of a leader should I have? if I am, in fact going to be a leader? Or am one?"
But for some reason... God bought me to Joseph. I've read about him A LOT growing up. Of course, there is always something more revelation to receive about the Word of God in every passage. You can never FULLY receive a revelation in any portion.
Some of the things that were pointed out to me about Joseph's leadership were actually like "oh duh!" moments... but then there were a few that was like.. "wow.. I didn't know that!" It was definitely insightful.
Joseph Mastered The Little Things...
Joseph was a slave... what can be more low than being a slave? He made the best of it, mastered that position and was promoted to being Potipher's personal servant... Then he went on to master in that position as well... But then he ended up in prison (Which I will discuss in a bit)... However, When Joseph was placed in prison, the warden apparently liked him so much that he placed him in charge of a certain amount of prisioners....
That's definitely something that leaders should take into consideration... The things that really don't seem like a big deal to us, may actually be a BIG deal in the long run..
Joseph Did Not Give Into Sexual Temptation
Potipher's wife attempted to seduce Joseph. Which led to him being placed in prison basically. Now, for the average man... actually.. for any man.. that is NOT and easy thing to deal with. I can't really say how Potipher's wife looked in appearance, but let's just assume that she was pretty. Joseph to taking the initiative to run away from the temptation was a BIG deal.
Leaders cannot give into those temptations.. it is definitely a hard in our generation to resist it. Especially when everything in media, music, friends, etc. are making it appear acceptable. But it is important to take a stand against those temptations and run away from it
Joseph Respected His Leaders
That's definitely one that we don't think about often... Joseph respected Potipher enough to not sleep with his wife...
Joseph Was Concerned With the Way God Viewed Him.
Joseph fled from temptation because he was concerned about him sinning against God (Genesis 39:9). Although he did express his respect for Potipher, he was more concerned with the evil act.
Joseph Was Patient
He spent about 13 years in slavery... He probably didn't know what God's plan for him was from the beginning, but he allowed God to work and move on his behalf...
Joseph Gave All Credit to God For His Gift
Joseph was able to interpret dreams! I mean, we've all heard of those crazy people that try to tell you what your dreams mean.. When majority of those people are just trying to get money out of it. ABSOLUTELY gives NO credit to God..
Joseph was God-inspired, which is why he had the gift to interpret dreams. It's only right to give Him credit for it.
Joseph Encouraged Others to Lead-He was Humble
Joseph didn't jump into the leadership role after he explained Pharaoh's dream. He immediately told Pharaoh that he had to find someone that fit the qualifications to lead Egypt through the famine. Joseph Was Strategic/He Planned
I don't know how it was humanly possible to store enough food to last an entire population of Egypt for 7 Years... Let alone, having enough to give out to people who were not living in Egypt! Either their appetites weren't nearly as big as ours or something... But however it was done, definitely required a lot of time to plan. He mastered that..
Joseph didn't allow his "past" to determine his future...
It's hard to deal with when your own flesh and blood sells you into slavery. How can you deal with that? I'm sure Joseph had a lot of time to think about it. He had to have experienced a lot of hurt and pain. But he was able to forgive and act on forgiveness...
Those were a few things that I was able to pull from it.. Definitely a good thing to use to examine where I am.
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Random Thoughts-Brainstorming.. MONEY!! haha
I had an intense urge to journal.. but for some odd reason, I decided to leave my books at school.
I couldn't wait any longer to fill something into it. So I'm going to fill in a blog post.
Coming home for Winter Break is definitely a combination of excitement, relaxation... and then frustration to boredom. For me to be "mentally" stable, I have to be active and doing something constantly... so sitting around for four weeks of the same exact routine of nothing-ness is absolutely a drag. I'm actually kind of hoping that I won't have to have another break like this ever again. (Especially Summer)
Though, I don't think I'm going to come home for Spring Break this year. I'm hoping that I can at least have a job somewhere in Lynchburg that I can possibly be working at during that break. I'm in the process of applying for quite a bit of places. Getting applications printed and ready so that as soon as I get to Lynchburg, I can go and submit them.
Right now, the biggest set-back is not having a car, or a consistent phone number. I can't take the statement of "believing God" for those things, without taking the initiative to stepping in action to getting them. So, me getting a car is going to start by me first getting a job. I've been blessed because my quadmate is willing to take me to work by just chipping in for gas. Which is a BIG help. Especially since the places in Lynchburg are so close to school.
Hopefully, if things go well, I can have a job for the Spring Semester, and then working/transferring to a location in Richmond for the Summer.. or working at a camp. They are going to do a Camp Fair in February at Liberty. So I will take the initiative to apply to as many as possible. For one, being in Richmond is not going to do much for me. Secondly, I need to get money saved up for quite a bit of things.
The thing about working is that I have tons of experience... just volunteer work.. So I guess it's time to start making money for it. And I'm way past the age of relying on my parents to give me money.
I think I should apply to become a nanny or something lol. I've heard that they actually bring in a bit. And I'm really good with children for one. I've worked with them for years. I guess the biggest downfall to actually becoming a nanny is the fact that I don't have CPR certification -___- ha.
Then I'm looking around for some other ideas. Like potential selling stock photos. I have quite a bit that I can use now.. But I wonder how much I can get from it. If it works well I can definitely use the extra cash.
But everything will fall into place. I just need not worry about it. I'm glad at the moment I don't have any expenses.. but is it weird that I want to just create that responsibility on my own?
Now I'm trying to decide if its the fact that I just need something to do, or just want money.. or both haha.
Yeah... it's probably both.
-Quayla
I couldn't wait any longer to fill something into it. So I'm going to fill in a blog post.
Coming home for Winter Break is definitely a combination of excitement, relaxation... and then frustration to boredom. For me to be "mentally" stable, I have to be active and doing something constantly... so sitting around for four weeks of the same exact routine of nothing-ness is absolutely a drag. I'm actually kind of hoping that I won't have to have another break like this ever again. (Especially Summer)
Though, I don't think I'm going to come home for Spring Break this year. I'm hoping that I can at least have a job somewhere in Lynchburg that I can possibly be working at during that break. I'm in the process of applying for quite a bit of places. Getting applications printed and ready so that as soon as I get to Lynchburg, I can go and submit them.
Right now, the biggest set-back is not having a car, or a consistent phone number. I can't take the statement of "believing God" for those things, without taking the initiative to stepping in action to getting them. So, me getting a car is going to start by me first getting a job. I've been blessed because my quadmate is willing to take me to work by just chipping in for gas. Which is a BIG help. Especially since the places in Lynchburg are so close to school.
Hopefully, if things go well, I can have a job for the Spring Semester, and then working/transferring to a location in Richmond for the Summer.. or working at a camp. They are going to do a Camp Fair in February at Liberty. So I will take the initiative to apply to as many as possible. For one, being in Richmond is not going to do much for me. Secondly, I need to get money saved up for quite a bit of things.
The thing about working is that I have tons of experience... just volunteer work.. So I guess it's time to start making money for it. And I'm way past the age of relying on my parents to give me money.
I think I should apply to become a nanny or something lol. I've heard that they actually bring in a bit. And I'm really good with children for one. I've worked with them for years. I guess the biggest downfall to actually becoming a nanny is the fact that I don't have CPR certification -___- ha.
Then I'm looking around for some other ideas. Like potential selling stock photos. I have quite a bit that I can use now.. But I wonder how much I can get from it. If it works well I can definitely use the extra cash.
But everything will fall into place. I just need not worry about it. I'm glad at the moment I don't have any expenses.. but is it weird that I want to just create that responsibility on my own?
Now I'm trying to decide if its the fact that I just need something to do, or just want money.. or both haha.
Yeah... it's probably both.
-Quayla
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
Conflict.. peace...
For the past few days (well.. weeks), I've been reflecting and valuing peace.
I did NOT value it nearly as much as I should have... but this semester, I didn't realize how much I took it for granted.
Conflict... I have not seen so much in my entire life until this semester. It's just the point where everything is all over the place and its so much to mentally handle. I'm not even involved in it and it's overwhelming to deal with on a personal level. Actually.. I don't see how anyone can personally handle conflict on their own. It is something that you have to let God become involved. Because honestly.. the fact that the conflict that I've been involved in this semester was so minimal... is only because of God (if you can understand that). I mean, I'm not sure whether or not there is anyone on the hall that has an issue with me. I don't care really. Not everyone in the world is going to like me.. but I do have to do everything that is possible to make sure that I am at peace with everyone.
I think, if I were to be selected to be an RA, that would be the biggest struggle for me. I sort of mentioned it in my application... I know that I can handle it, but it's just the fact that my approach to it is different than most. For one, I grew up spending time with guys. The way guys deal with conflict is so much different than the way that girls deal with it. Girls have to talk about it all the time, even when it's over and done with. Guys just deal with it and be done.
I really am reminding myself that it is our job to remain peaceable with all men. Peace is IMPORTANT. God even mention that a house divided cannot stand. My parents used to mention it a lot.. and it's SOO true. It is definitely an area where I'm going to focus on next in my personal growth.
I need more guy friends. lol or at least call and talk to my dad and my brother more often... that is a good plan actually. lol
But here is my little rant
I did NOT value it nearly as much as I should have... but this semester, I didn't realize how much I took it for granted.
Conflict... I have not seen so much in my entire life until this semester. It's just the point where everything is all over the place and its so much to mentally handle. I'm not even involved in it and it's overwhelming to deal with on a personal level. Actually.. I don't see how anyone can personally handle conflict on their own. It is something that you have to let God become involved. Because honestly.. the fact that the conflict that I've been involved in this semester was so minimal... is only because of God (if you can understand that). I mean, I'm not sure whether or not there is anyone on the hall that has an issue with me. I don't care really. Not everyone in the world is going to like me.. but I do have to do everything that is possible to make sure that I am at peace with everyone.
I think, if I were to be selected to be an RA, that would be the biggest struggle for me. I sort of mentioned it in my application... I know that I can handle it, but it's just the fact that my approach to it is different than most. For one, I grew up spending time with guys. The way guys deal with conflict is so much different than the way that girls deal with it. Girls have to talk about it all the time, even when it's over and done with. Guys just deal with it and be done.
I really am reminding myself that it is our job to remain peaceable with all men. Peace is IMPORTANT. God even mention that a house divided cannot stand. My parents used to mention it a lot.. and it's SOO true. It is definitely an area where I'm going to focus on next in my personal growth.
I need more guy friends. lol or at least call and talk to my dad and my brother more often... that is a good plan actually. lol
But here is my little rant
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