I kind of want to make blogging a consistent thing. We will see.

This blog I think I'll make just a bit more personal than usual.  Not that I'm going to go into deep details about myself. But I think I'll be a bit more transparent than what I have been.

Although I have sought to experience a level of growth constantly in the past, I feel as though this semester has been the one where I have grown the most. I've become more knowledgeable about the fact that I am absolutely worthless without God. I've always known.. but now I KNOW.

I do feel as though the area that I've been relying on Him the most this semester was my emotions/feelings.  Now I'm not much of any emotional person.. but as far as my feelings go.. I would definitely like to have a better guard. In a way that I'm not falling for someone easily (which doesn't really happen), where I'm not feeling inadequate because someone doesn't share mutual interest, and where I don't have a wall built so hard that no one can pass.   I feel as though its becoming easier lately. Mainly because I really have developed a level of humility but an increasing love for myself.  Which comes from my increasing love for God.
For the first time in my life, I can really say that I'm falling more in love with God everyday.  That greatly contributes to the love I have for myself.  Which in turn has transformed me into becoming that Proverbs 31 woman.. not only on a spiritual level, but physically and mentally as well. Things that never sparked my interest before this semester suddenly does .. I'm becoming girly.  Its crazy. But fun.

But when it does come to my emotions... old things resurface.. and I really do not know how to perceive or handle it. Its been something that I've dealt with the hardest this semester. It got to the point where I was tired of the cycle. God is still working on it, but I do see progress. Its so comforting to know that.

One thing I've noticed this semester is how well I get along with people.  There has been so much tension going on lately between other people and I really don't see why either party would feel that way about the other.  Its weird. But I have had the time to observe and apparently I'm the advice giver sometimes.

But it's getting late. Even though I can sleep in tomorrow,  I still want to get as much as I can.

-Quayla